He Who Can't Be Named

The year of the Dragon has finally arrived.

2012-01-03T17:13:00.001+08:00

‘ Write back what is wrong, we move along ’

Move Along by The All American Rejects

2011 has been one hell of a ride. Thanks for everything everybody. Thank you so very much.

The Graduation Day has finally arrived

2011-12-09T13:11:00.001+08:00

Graduation Day! It fills the heart with mixed feelings - fulfilment and sadness, anxiety and eagerness. A day full of laughter and happiness. Thanks for those who came and thanks for those who support me through out these three years. Thank God!

Classmates for three years. Gonna miss them. T_T

p/s : Happy graduation dear-self. You’ve made it! Yeayness

Just a quote. About me.

2011-12-08T19:36:00.001+08:00

‘semoga engkau kan mengerti tentang perasaan ini
maaf ku telah terbuai akan indahnya cinta

maaf sungguh ku tak bisa untuk kembali padamu
maaf ku telah terbuai akan indahnya cinta’

The episodes of life.

2011-10-28T02:38:00.001+08:00

Dulu masa dekat sekolah rendah, selalu rasa macam tak sabar sangat nak jadi besar, I mean dewasa la. Rasa macam bila dah jadi orang besar, boleh jalan-jalan and boleh hidup senang lenang macam boss.

Bila cikgu tanya ‘Siti Aishah, dah besar nanti awak nak jadi apa’. Dengan slumber aku jawab, ‘Nak jadi pramugari cikgu’.

Without knowing yang aku akan jadi pendek bila dah menjelang dewasa. Antara yang terpendek di kalangan orang pendek. Kecewa betul, bila dapat diri sendiri tak boleh tinggi lagi. My actual height is 154cm. I’m a shorty.

Bila masuk sekolah menengah, rasa macam tak sabar sangat pulak nak habis sekolah. Konon-nya macam best sangat belajar jauh dari mak bapak. Macam konon-nya best sangat belajar dekat kolej. Pada hakikat-nya, aku takut nak jauh dari mak bapak aku. Takut sangat nak pergi tempat yang aku tak pernah pergi, bukan apa, I used to be very tak friendly. So, aku rasa macam aku akan ada masalah in making new friends. Bila dah habis sekolah menengah, rindu pulak nak sekolah balik. Memang ragam manusia, tak pernah sudah.

When I entered college, I have no friends. I still remembered, on my first day, I wore a pink baju kurung with white scarf and a pair of black flats. Rasa macam alien sangat masa tu. First night dekat hostel, menangis tersedu-sedu atas katil sebab rindu dekat family. Very funny. Rasa macam three years studies tu macam lama sangat. Tak sabar nak kerja lah konon-nya. But in the end, after three years there, despite all the chaos – I had many new friends. Orang-orang yang memang aku takkan trade dengan apa-apa pun. I love them so much. Rasa macam taknak habis study.

And now, here I am. Writing this while prone lying on my bed. Jobless. I really need a job. I have debts to pay and I have parents to be taken care of. Tolong wahai kerja-kerja di luar sana, berdamping-lah dengan ku.

Sebelum lupa, last 2 weeks, on 13th October 2011 was my favourite niece’s birthday. She is now 6 years old. And, and guess what, she’s going to SIGS Primary for her Darjah 1. I am so excited. Rasa macam sekejap saja dia dah besar. Anyway, Aunty Aishah loves you!

Alright, till we meet again. Another place another time. Another world, another life.

Weekend at Base ; Ikea and Batting Cages

2011-10-25T01:48:00.001+08:00

I spent my last weekend, preferably, awesome.

My original plan was going to my friend’s wedding at Gombak. At least, I thought it was in Gombak and I thought of driving myself there, its not that far. But actually the wedding was at Bentung, Pahang. Its too far and I am literally scared of driving that far. I felt bad, but what to do. Safety comes first. But yet, I still love her. Congrats! Despite all the hardness you have gone through, you’re married now. I’ll be seeing you, InsyaAllah.

So, I replaced the plan with other plans.

First, we went to IKEA and I ate a lot!

Then, after finished eating, we went to One Utama, Damansara. And guess what, we went to the Batting Cages. God! I’m loving it so much. I’m too excited, I gonna die.

Thanks to you-know-who. Without you, I’ll be mati kutu. Thanks for your time. Thanks for belanja me.
Till we meet again.

Youth Shout Out organized by Joho

2011-10-11T02:51:00.001+08:00

Youth Shout Out that has been organized by JOHO was spectacular. It was held on 8th and 9th of October at IOI Mall, Kulai. Despite all the chaos, I managed to be there on time. I brought my camera with me. I had nothing to buy, really, other than a notebook and a landyard from JOHO and also to meet up with two of my seniors from school that happened to sell cupcakes there. And their cupcakes were awesome. You all should grab some! I bet you all will like it. So, ladies and gentlemen – here we go.

The Youth Shout Out banner. Awesome.

This sticker and the JOHO T-shirt were all over the place. And I’ve got to say this, I am proud to be a Johorean.

I don’t know who they are but one thing for sure, they were pretty awesome.

And here they are, my school seniors with their cupcakes. And I bought 3 of the cupcakes and all 3 were awesome. Sedap!

Till we meet again.

Message inside my chest

2011-10-05T02:31:00.001+08:00

Can’t Help Falling in Love by Ingrid Michaelson - Daripada siang sampai ke malam, dah masuk hari baru dah pun. Lagu ni berkumandang dalam otak. Apa motif, aku sendiri tak tahu. Tertanya-tanya macam orang gila. Baring atas tilam, cakap sorang-sorang. Dan satu benda yang pasti, bukan sebab aku sedang falling in love because I’m not. Mungkin, lagu ni, menyimpan seribu satu kenangan. Who knows?

Hari-hari aku sejak dua bulan lepas, sangat tidak produktif. Duduk rumah, melepak tengok televisyen, kalau lapar aku makan. Duduk rumah macam bos. Kadang-kadang saja, aku buat house chores. Tapi, baca betol-betol, aku cakap, kadang-kadang. Tengok mood tuan punya badan. Kalau aku rajin, aku buat. Kalau dah malas tu, buat bodoh.

Dan baru aku sedar, susah betul nak carik kerja zaman sekarang. Dengan prestasi akademik seperti aku – tidak memberangsangkan. Resume aku yang ber-alas kan sukan semata, mungkin peluang aku untuk bekerja tipis. Tapi tak apa, aku cuba untuk pikir positif. Ini semua untuk masa depan aku. Kalau aku tak buat sekarang. Kemudian hari pun, tak ada siapa yang akan buat kan untuk aku. Parents aku pun sudah boleh di kategorikan sebagai golongan berumur, jadi, sooner or later, aku yang kena jaga diorang. Bukan diorang yang kena jaga aku. Cukup lah sudah aku makan duit diorang. Umur aku dah nak masuk 21, dah boleh mengundi dah tau.

Aku bukan nak mintak belas kasihan. Don’t get me wrong. Aku cuba untuk sampaikan satu mesej yang terpendam dalam dada aku selama ni. Itu saja. Aku rasa macam, aku dah banyak sangat menyusah kan parents aku. And its time for me to grow up.

And above all these, I miss being a student. I miss my friends.

I never wanna let go, just wanna let you know.

2011-09-23T03:14:00.001+08:00

1. These pictures pretty much shows how I celebrated my Hari Raya.

2. This year’s Hari Raya has been of the greatest. I spend lots of time with family and friends. And I am really glad I did something like that. At least something, it shows that I care so much about them. No matter how far they are – close or not – I still love them, nonetheless.

3. So be grateful of what you have now.

4. Selamat Hari Raya everybody! Ops! If its not too late. :P

You’re the music in me. Remember?

2011-06-29T09:06:00.001+08:00

By Adam Levine,

My heart's a stereo. It beats for you, so listen close. Hear my thoughts in every note
Make me your radio. Turn me up when you feel low. This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo. I only pray you never leave me behind
Because good music can be so hard to find. I take your hand and pull it closer to mine
Thought love was dead, but now you're changing my mind.

Chorus – Bridge : Stereo Hearts.

Nota #6

2011-04-22T00:04:00.002+08:00

My dear, can I shout my lungs out if I need you here beside me?

I just need you to listen and be a good listener.

I just need you to be able to make me laugh even if I am in a miserable mode.

I just need a shoulder to lean on. And I know you will be the most suitable person.

I need you to to be yourself. Don’t you ever change.

I am a jerk.

I am a fool.

I am dumb.

I can’t think straight.

But,

I am not confuse my dear. I am not scared. But I am scarred.

Above all these, guard your heart. Guide your heart.

Nota #5

2011-04-18T23:20:00.002+08:00

You are so irresistible. You make me so nervous.

I always imagine the picture of you and me. Holding hands. And of course. Being in love with each other.

Somehow, I miss you. I am constantly thinking about you.

Like, there will be no life after you. You are my life now.

Even if, I have to keep this feeling for a long period of time. It will be forever worth.

Just so you know,

I don’t have the strength to resist to control my feelings towards you.

Nota #4

2011-04-13T23:10:00.002+08:00

If someone ask me.
Who am I going to spent my whole life with.
The answer will be simple.
It will always be you. Now and forever.

If someone ask me.
Will I love you forever?
The answer will be like this.
Yes, I will. Wholeheartedly. Now and forever. Till death do us part.

I will miss you everyday of my life. I will think of you every minute and every second.
I will love you until my last heartbeat. My mind, my heart and my soul will always be with you.

Love Me by Justin Bieber.

Nota #3

2011-04-12T23:40:00.002+08:00

If somehow. I am not the one for you.
If somehow. I am not good enough for you.
If somehow. I can’t be what you want me to be.

I just want you know that,
I really do have feelings towards you.
And I know the feelings are all mutual.

If you are mine. Then, forever yours I will be.
Whatever happens. Wherever you go. Whatever you do.
I’ll be right here waiting for you.

My best friend’s big day.

2011-04-11T23:07:00.001+08:00

( sila baca dari bawah ke atas )

So, yesterday. I went to Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka. Nak pergi tengok si Ruhil Alina Ruslan punya first staging. Sumpah aku berusaha keras just nak pergi tengok. Dari LRT Hang Tuah aku jalan kaki. Jauh tau. At the end of the day, aku happy. And the theatre was so great! And just so you know, aku happy sangat dapat jumpa engkau. Datuk Harimau boleh menang movie of the year. Kudos!

Ini di beri kepada setiap penonton yang hadir pada malam pementasan. Dan di dalam nya ada memperkenalkan setiap pelakon dan krew yang terlibat. And I am proud to tell, my best friend is one of them!

See! Yang tengah tu. (tengah pegang telephone). Ruhil Alina binti Ruslan – Pengurus Pentas.

Last but not least.

One happy kid. I’ll be seeing you!

Nota #2

2011-04-11T22:22:00.002+08:00

Malam kepada malam semalam.
Aku bermimpi.

Aku memegang tangan seseorang.
Dan aku dapat merasakan perasaan ku di dalam mimpi tersebut.
Dan perasaan itu semestinya perasaan gembira. Perasaan yang sudah sekian lama aku tak rasa.

Dan seseorang itu adalah Kamu.

Nota #1

2011-04-08T18:06:00.002+08:00

Saya bukan lah seorang yang pandai bermadah.
Saya bukan lah seorang yang pandai berhelah.
Saya bukan lah seorang yang pandai bermanis kata.
Saya bukan lah seorang yang suka berkata-kata.

But I like you. A lot.
Can I?

P/S : I’m not asking you to say yes now. I’m just trying to be honest.

loves.

2011-03-17T13:32:00.001+08:00

T U E S D A Y – 1 5 M A R C H 2 0 1 1
A L A M A N D A , P U T R A J A Y A

We watched the movie – R A N G O. The movie was quite boring.

Then, we went to the food court to have our dinner. I ate this - peanut butter and strawberry waffle. (picture above) This is the great waffle of Alamanda! It was awesome. Dah lama sangat mengidam, dari tahun lepas!

And finally, berangan time! :D:D

Books

2011-03-08T15:51:00.001+08:00

I am a person who is not liking a thing called reading. But, now. I am loving it! How cool is that?! The first novel to kick start the reading mood was Remember Me by Sophie Kinsella. And, indeed. Sophie Kinsella is really good in making me or maybe perhaps all the readers to imagine how handsome and hot all the characters in the novel would be in the real world. LOL! And one thing why I love to read (currently) is because, I love to imagine. Imaginations kind of soothes me. I feel more relax when I am in a imagination mood.

Remember Me by Sophie Kinsella is all about – A person that has to survive the world by pretending to be someone else. Someone that she (the main character is a female) will never be in her real life. One day, she woke up in the hospital. Without knowing a thing about her life. In her real life, she always has been the hideous among her friends. She always on the bottom. No matter what she does or where she goes. Nobody will ever bother. But after she woke up that day, she realised that she is not that same person anymore. She is totally not hideous anymore, she is hotter than her friends. And everybody is calling her a bitchy boss.

Then after I finish reading the first novel. I went through my mom’s bookshelf, then I found a novel titled – My Legendary Girlfriend by Mike Gayle. And I can tell you. This book is really good for those who has been dumped, who ever dumped. I’ve learnt a lot from this novel. Like seriously, this book is hilarious! (only for those who is liking this kind of novel ; love stories).

Remember Me by Mike Gayle is about a character named Will and her ex-girlfriend named Aggi. How he survived after dumped by Aggi on his 23rd birthday. And after three solid years, he still unable to forget everything about Aggi. He is struggling through out the three years moaning and complaining how unfortunate his life is. Through out the process, he finds out that his best mate sleeps with Aggi. And he is started to falling for his best friend.

The Legend

2011-02-22T22:20:00.001+08:00

^{‘ Aggi really quite brilliant, the most wonderful person I’d ever had the pleasure meeting in my life. When we first met, started going out together I used to walk her home and we were kissing and hugging goodbye on her door step, but my favourite thing to do was capturing the Moment – her smell, the taste of her mouth, to photograph it and keep it forever. But it never worked.}

^{Will : Do you love me?
Aggi : I love you so much that when I think about how I feel about you my brain can't begin to comprehend it. It's exactly like infinity. I don't understand it, but those are the limitations of my love. ’}

malam pesta muda-mudi

2011-02-22T00:09:00.001+08:00

^{favourite girlfriends. *keningkening*}

Oh by the way, we went to Pesta Layang-Layang, Pasir Gudang. Ramai gila orang, tak terhingga ramai nya. Try to terbangkan layang-layang yang di beli dengan harga MYR4. Tapi tak berjaya. Penat berlari sampai basah-basah ketiak. LOL. But, we had fun that night. Things when well. That night was superb!

^{See! The crowd! OMG. Memang sangat ramai!}

^{The windmill. Petanda ada angin ke tak. Petanda arah angin juga. *jakun*}

^{Ini antara layang-layang yang di jual malam itu. Mula-mula masa kitaorang nak beli dia jual satu MYR4. Masa kitorang dah nak balik, diaorang jual empat MYR10. Haha. Macam haram! –______-}

P/S : In one week time, I’ll be back in Nilai. Tak suka. Tak suka. I love JB :/

I love you, I really do.

2011-02-17T23:56:00.001+08:00

^{Picture above : Ruhil Alina binti Ruslan. Nak jumpa dia, macam nak jumpa David Beckham (susah benar) -___-'}

The love continues,

Lots and lots of love to - Nurul Nabilah Yusoff and Shafiqa Hamid.

^{I know, it’s already too late. But, I love them. And this is how we celebrated our Chinese New Year’s holiday. Banyak sangat ketawa. Banyak juga silap laku yang telah dilakukan. Harap maaf. Nobody’s perfect. I do love my friends. But, I love you more. Till, we meet again. Take care of yourselves. Peace. Out.}

Shine the light on her

2011-01-24T13:34:00.001+08:00

Para sweethearts. You’ve made my day. Thank you.

LOL – lots of love.

It was all brighter back then #2

2011-01-17T16:05:00.001+08:00

^{‘ Excited gila bila nak datang sekolah. Bila nampak orang yang kita minat jadi gelabah semacam. Bawa handphone letak dalam pocket, dah tu kantoi dengan Encik Zahar. Dekat sekolah boleh cabut kelas, lepak dekat balak. Cabut kelas, sebab nak stalk orang yang kita minat. Duduk atas padang, sebab nak mencapap. Stay sampai petang, taknak balik rumah sebab nak date. ’}

Rindu.

All well–The Farewell

2011-01-16T00:57:00.001+08:00

On the night of 14th January 2010, aku dan kawan-kawan pergi hang out bersama-sama. Dan konon-nya, pada malam itu, aku akan sleep-over at their place. Plan semua dah gerek gila dah, memang gerek. And our first stop was, having dinner with Mr. Shafiq bin Anuar and Mr. Omar bin Muri. Both were my seniors, and currently physiotherapist. They have 6 years contract. Oh my god, sangat bosan!

After finish eating, my friend’s childhood friend named, Nuar. Came and fetch us up. Then we went to, Suara OK. Tempat karaoke. Melalak sampai tak ada suara. Sakit tekat aku. –.-‘

And for the last pit stop. At that time dah 2 o’clock in the morning, went to Bazaar Karat tapi closed already. Then, no where to go kan. Jalan macam orang gila. Tiba-tiba ternampak one stall jual shisha. Lepak lah situ sampai 3.30am.

Okay now. Tiba lah klimaks of the night. Dalam pukul 3.45am sampai lah ke rumah mereka. Dan secara tiba-tiba, rumah berkunci dan tiada siapa tahu kunci di mana. Masing-masing mati akal – sebab masing masing dah mengantuk. Macam zombie. Pikir punya pikir, akhir nya – kami membuat keputusan untuk pergi ke Terminal Bas Larkin dan menumpang surau-nya untuk satu malam. Mujur lah, perjalanan dari rumah mereka ke terminal tak jauh. Haha. What a night.

Quite an experience.

It was all brighter back then

2011-01-11T22:11:00.001+08:00

Missing.

After all these years

2011-01-02T22:48:00.001+08:00

This is Hana Fathiah. to all – Ini anak Scott :)

We went to Monsta Cafe. hangout sama-sama! We had tons of fun. Food pun sedap. Yesterday, was awesome!

When you look at your life, the greatest happiness are family happiness - Joyce Brothers

2010-12-05T22:55:00.001+08:00

My whole family and I, went to Air Terjun, Kota Tinggi siang tadi. I cannot remember when was the last time, aku pergi sana. probably, masa aku dekat primary school kot. so, I had lots of fun. sangat fun. sebab dah lama tak gather ramai-ramai macam ni.

Actually, the actual plan was, to go to Malacca for 3 days 2 nights punya holiday. tapi sebab kekurangan bajet dan masa. Air Terjun, Kota Tinggi pun jadi lah. LOL.

So here we go, these is some of the photos taken.

last but not least. hahahaha :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD – ini case 6.30 pagi dah bangun. sebab excited sangat nak pergi mandi air terjun. kesian, penat.

Aku Poyo #1

2010-12-03T22:08:00.001+08:00

Macam-macam dalam hidup aku dah cuba buat.

Aku pernah masuk olahraga masa sekolah rendah. poyo. kunun-kunun lari laju sangat. hujung-hujung aku yang sesak nafas.

Aku pernah jadi pengerusi kelas Sains dan Matematik. tapi sebenarnya, aku sangat bodoh dalam dua subject itu. cuba bayang kan eh. selama aku bersekolah – both primary and secondary. aku tak pernah lulus dalam ujian bulanan. alah, lulus dalam peperiksaan besar macam UPSR, PMR, SPM. boleh dikirakan sebagai nasib baik sahaja. kalau tak lulus, mahu kena sebat dengan ibu. takut.

Aku pernah masuk tarian. walhal, aku paling tak suka tarian. aku suka tengok. tapi aku tak suka involve. nak kena lembut kan tangan lah jadah. kejadah nya. boleh pulak tangan aku yang keras macam kayu ni jadi lembut. ada betul? honestly lah, tengok aku sekarang, ada ke gaya budak tarian? haha.

Aku pernah masuk pertandingan sajak. sebab kena paksa dengan ibu sendiri merangkap salah seorang guru bahasa inggeris di sekolah yang sama. aku still ingat eh, macam mana muka dan reaksi aku on the day of the competiton. aku nervous bagai nak mampos. sebelum naik stage, aku dah hafal semua. bila tiba atas stage. pap! hilang terus. langsung tak ingat apa-apa. dah tu, takkan nak diam je kan. jadi, aku keluar kan kertas sajak tu. aku baca, macam baca buku cerita. OMG! malu wok.

Oh, masa sekolah rendah kan. aku selalu pakai tudung sekolah yang satu lapis tu tau. buruk gila muka macam haram. dah tu, aku selalu envy kawan-kawan aku yang reti pakai tudung dua lapis. and then, one day. nak di jadikan cerita. aku nak pakai tudung dua lapis pergi sekolah. ayah pun tolong lah iron kan malam sebelum tu. esok pagi nya, aku bangun lambat. dah gelabah semacam. rumah dengan sekolah tak jauh. tiba sekolah, tak siap lagi pakai tudung sebab tak reti. tiba sekolah, aku turun kereta tunduk bawah saja. sebab aku malu. pakai tudung tak betul. haha.

Alah, kalau nak cerita. banyak lagi lah boleh cerita. tapi nanti saja lah aku cerita pasal benda-benda poyo yang aku pernah buat. haha. bye bye.

I love you, PS

2010-11-25T23:15:00.001+08:00

Tonight I'm tangled in my blanket of clouds
Dreaming aloud

Things just won't do without you, matter of fact
I'm on your back
If you walk out on me
I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me
I'm walking after you

If you'd accept surrender, I'll give up some more
Weren't you adored

I cannot be without you, matter of fact
I'm on your back

If you walk out on me
I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me
I'm walking after you

Another heart is cracked in two
I'm on your back

I cannot be without you, matter of fact
I'm on your back

If you walk out on me
I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me
I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me
I'm walking after you

Another heart is cracked in two

^{Walking After You – Foo Fighters}

Lambaian Hati

2010-11-17T02:11:00.001+08:00

Engkau bilang engkau sayang.

Bikin hati aku jadi senang.

Engkau bilang engkau cinta.

Bikin aku terbayang-bayang.

Engkau bilang engkau setia.

Bikin aku ingat sepanjang masa.

Engkau bilang engkau tidak akan dusta.

Bikin aku semakin suka.

Wahai cinta.

Ke mana engkau menghilang?

Bila engkau mahu datang?

Jikalau engkau datang sekali lagi wahai cinta, jangan lah engkau pergi.

Kerna aku tidak sanggup lagi.

Wahai cinta.

Jikalau jahat niat engkau.

Pergi lah engkau ke sana.

Aku tidak sanggup untuk berduka lagi.

Kerna terlalu dalam luka di dalam hati ini.

Inspired by Tan Sri P.Ramlee.

Selamat Malam to All God’s Sweet Creature.

May God Bless You.

P/S : This thing have nothing to do with the living and the dead.

2010-11-05T22:02:00.000+08:00

Once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, fact, habits, or goal about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

Sony Walkman
Celcom Broadband
Acer
Converse All Star - Chocolate
Nike ACG Sandals
Nike Slippers
Swatch Swiss
Friendship Bracelet - Green, Yellow, Red
Nike Sport Shoes
Clearasil Facial Foam
Fresh and White toothpaste
Palmolive Shampoo and Conditioner - Pink
Lifebuoy Body Soap
Green and red lover
Love T-Shirts
Dreaming of cupcakes for 20th birthday
Netball
CK One Summer
Taman Bukit Mewah, Johor Bahru
KPJ International College of Nursing and Health Sciences
Takut hantu
Full of jealousy
Suka gigit straw
Sayang ibu, ayah, adek
Suka membebel

I'm a human after all.

tagging: naima, bella, ruhil, qy, ezzaty, yoyo, luna, cukue, d'bot, nana ibrahim, farawahida, nabilla iskandar, chuen, ezzah nellysa, piyah, syura.

Tagged by Nurul Nabilah Yusoff

2010-11-01T14:31:00.001+08:00

Rules:
1. Put your music library on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question, no matter how silly it sounds! Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.
4. Ok, go!
5. When you're done, tag 20 people in this note, and make sure to tag the person who sent you this.

TRY NOT TO CHEAT!

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OK?" YOU SAY?
Hidupku Kan Damaikan Hatimu - Caffeine

2. HOW WOULD YOU BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Miss Independent - Neyo

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Shake Your Pom Pom - Missy Elliot

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Broken Strings - James Morrison feat Nelly Furtado

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Forget You - Ceelo Green

7. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Kembali Pulang - Wali Band

8. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Bukan Orang Suci - Element

9. WHAT IS 2+2?
Menghapus Jejakmu - Peter Pan

10. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Already Gone - Kelly Clarkson

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Buttons - Pussycat Dolls

12. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
All The Right Moves - One Republic

13. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Pieces - Sum 41

14. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Never Knew I Needed - Neyo

15. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Not Falling Apart - Maroon 5

16. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Shut Up and Kiss Me - Orianthi

17. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Yesterday - Leona Lewis

18. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Knock Knock - Lenka

19. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Getaway - Michelle Branch feat Timbaland

20. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
For Your Entertainment - Adam Lambert

21. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Tentang Seseoarang - Anda

Tagged by NN

2010-10-28T18:04:00.006+08:00

1. Name 1 person who made you laugh last night.
My friends.

2. What were you doing 1 hour ago?
Just finished my examination. My first paper actually.

3. What was the last thing you said out loud?
Bodoh! Haha

4. Where's the next place you're going to go?
Somewhere over the rainbow. Haha

5. What was the last thing you paid for?
Nasi Bujang RM2.20.

6. Where were you last night?
Inside my room, studying sebab nak exam. Haha

7. What's the best ice-cream flavor?
Probably, ais krim potong flavour cempedak.

8. Do you wanna cut your hair?
For now, no lah kot. Malas. Biar dulu apa yang ada. Kalau potong pendek lagi kena marah! OMG.

9. Do you love to melatah?
Sometimes. Most of the time, NO.

10. If that so (melatah) , what will you said out loud?
Eh mak kau babi! Ooops! Haha.

11. What does the last text message you received say?
I dah sampai.

12. Will you get married in the future?
No. Tak mahu kahwin.

13. Do you chew on your straw?
Yes! Tiap kali habis minum air. Confirm! Haha. Geli ek?

14. Do you make up your own words?
No lah. Tak reti.

15. Is there anyone you like/love right now?
Yes. Like I always do.

16. Tag to others 5 bloggers.
NOBODY.

I love football.

2010-10-21T23:20:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, at Stadium Tunku Abdul Rahman, Paroi, Negeri Sembilan ada perlahwanan bola sepak between Johor FC and Negeri Sembilan. macam biasa, stadium di penuhi dengan supporters Negeri Sembilan. aku orang Johor. tapi pada malam tu, aku sokong Negeri Sembilan. saja je kan? LOL. tak apa lah. sekali sekala, apa lah salah nya. ramai sangat dekat stadium that night. semua speaking 'negeri'. I can hardly understand.

aku dah sampai stadium jam 7.30pm. kena datang awal. takut seats semua full. so, tunggu punya tunggu. jam 8.30pm, semua players keluar - mahu Johor FC, atau pun Negeri Sembilan. masing-masing hebat belaka. excited gila aku bila nampak Aidil Zafuan, dia pakai jersey number 7. masa nampak dia, aku excited macam nampak David Beckham OK. sumpah. punya lah star struck! LOL.

right after the players keluar. game pun start, main punya main. first half, tak ada siapa yang dapat buat goal. then, masa second half. main punya main. serang punya serang. both teams tak dapat-dapat juga buat goal. until minit ke 80. tiba-tiba saja, one of Johor FC punya striker goal kan satu. OMG. masa tu, aku tak tahu nak suka ke, nak menangis ke. serba salah. *aku orang Johor tapi datang stadium untuk sokong Negeri Sembilan* alah, tapi overall. dua-dua team best. sangat best. lagipun, aku jakun. first time tengok bola live, depan mata! haha.

this is my first football ticket. *jakun*

this is all the souvenirs. di jual di luar stadium.

motif gambar - ada sticker dekat pipi. haha

itu RELA yang on duty that night. he

ini orang yang duduk depan aku. motif - dia one of the hundreds supporters of Negeri Sembilan.

She is a beauty

2010-10-15T08:40:00.000+08:00

I love you, Agnes. LOL.

The colour is now black

2010-10-14T11:36:00.000+08:00

'' But I can't do it. And even worse, I don't know why I can't do it. You know, it's like, no matter how confusing or screwed up life got, the game always made sense. It was mine, you know. And in a lot of ways it's who I am. But I can't be that person in their gym, or in their uniforms, or... in their world ''

For my 20th birthday. Aku hanya mahu happiness.

It is more than enough. I know, aku tak cukup bagus untuk siapa-siapa. dengan perangai macam ni. dengan appearance aku lagi. like currently, everybody is crazy in love. love is in the air. siapa-siapa yang lucky, boleh petik dari udara. left me all alone in my room, crying.

I fuck my heart so much.

Happy Birthday Sayang

2010-10-13T20:12:00.001+08:00

''aku sayang ini budak. she is turning five''

Three is for nine.

2010-10-07T20:28:00.001+08:00

The orientation for the juniors sudah pun come to an end. I guess, me myself had lots of fun. others too. aku rasa, ini junior paling best. kena buat apa pun diorang buat. bukan lah in terms of bully OK. in terms of, bila play games, yang kalah mesti di denda. so, bila denda kena lah buat something yang beyond expectations. haha. tapi diorang cool. tak ada yang merungut. setakat ini lah. tak tahu lah nanti. tahun depan ke. so, yang mana membantu dan memberi full coorperation. thank you.

I do think, it was some kind of success.

And, remember my last post? this is my menti. her name is Nor Asyikin from JB. ;D

Hari-hari mendatang.

2010-10-04T23:08:00.000+08:00

This week I’ll be busy with junior orientation. Siap buat mentor menti lagi.

Syarat mentor :

Kena tulis nickname. Which, nickname aku hanya lah ‘cha’. sangat obvious. Jadi aku ada tukar nickname aku kepada SA that stands for SITI AISHAH which is still very obvious. haha

Kena tulis juga, sedikit sebanyak pasal diri sendiri.

And this is how it goes -

Aku kehabisan idea. penat nak pikir lah. itu saja yang ada dalam otak.

Penghabisan kata, this weekend. aku nak balik JB. so, please. barangsiapa yang membaca. dan berminat untuk turut serta. call or text me.

I demam. hmm. I miss you so much.

Goodbye.

You Are The Only Exception

2010-09-12T13:30:00.001+08:00

Sunday, 5th September 2010

Went to Singapore. teman cousins shopping. Haha. tapi seriously, shopping dekat sana sangat heaven. OMG! Apa yang buat aku kagum sangat, when I entered Nike Store then ternampak board yang tulis CUSTOMIZE YOUR OWN. Sangat best. Boleh customize sendiri Tshirt Nike ye. How cool is that? Aku jakun!

Wednesday, 8th September 2010

Went to 7Spice. Berbuka puasa dengan kawan-kawan - yang serious lama gila tak jumpa. Lepas berbuka puasa, went to Festive Mall, Danga Bay untuk ber-karaoke. I had lots off fun though. Thanks all :D

Friday, 10th September 2010

Bersamaan dengan 1 Syawal. Raya this year, not so fun because I had some issues with my mother. Tapi it’s OK. I still can put on my poker face. And all when well. Happy Hari Raya semua!

Malaysia’s 53rd Birthday.

2010-08-31T04:12:00.001+08:00

SELAMAT HARI JADI MALAYSIA

THIS IS HOW I CELEBRATE MY MERDEKA DAY,

1) I bought 2 shirts. 1 from Plaza Sungei Wang (the blue one), and Marvel Comic shirt from Bossini (the red one).

2) Berbuka di First Cup Cafe, Bukit Bintang.

3) Ber-karaoke di Red Box, Plaza Low Yatt.

P/S : Terima kasih kepada – IBU AYAH ADEK.

well, I could love you forever

2010-07-20T23:10:00.001+08:00

WORDS

JEALOUSY

DENIAL

TRUTH

HEARTS

LOVE

When, you’re around,

The skies are bluer.

The food taste yummier.

Even the grass are greener.

For what it’s worth, I sayang you.

Ayuh.

2010-06-24T09:43:00.001+08:00

I’m going back to Johor

Bahru today!

Has been tagged by Ezzah Nellysa and Siti Asyura

2010-06-18T16:31:00.001+08:00

Apa yang anda akan buat bila anda dapat tahu member anda tikam belakang anda?

Buat bodoh. malas nak layan.

Enam orang dihati anda?

You Family Classmates Schoolmates (Itu saja. enam banyak sangat!)

Anda rasa anda comel?

No. haha :P

Single?

Blog yang anda suka?

Too many too tell.

Adakah bilik anda kemas setiap hari?

Kalau rajin, yes. kalau malas, no. but most of the time, the answer will be NO.

Lagu terakhir yang anda dengar?

Neutron Star Collision by Muse

Last text message?

Netball coach.

Last phone call?

Netball coach.

Hari terakhir anda menangis?

Somewhere around last week. tak ingat what day.

List 5 kaler favorite anda?

Green Black Blue Red Yellow

Orang terakhir anda ber-Ym?

Game paling anda suka?

Counter-Strike. haha

Adakah anda peminat MCR?

Not really.

Apa perasaan anda menjawab Tag ini?

Ordinary.

Anda rasa Tag ini best?

Ordinary.

Tag lagi kepada 10 orang.

Tak perlu lah rasa nya. Haha

This is what I want, this is why I was chosen

2010-06-01T22:46:00.001+08:00

I am here. I am still here. I am not going anywhere

The truth hurts. the truth kills. the truth kills it all.

I am not here to cheat. I am not here to lie.

I am here to love.

You should be adored.

and I will love you. I will always be.

Just don’t say I never gave you anything

because I did.

cold writing

2010-04-08T14:48:00.000+08:00

every time, I feel like everything's fine. there must be something, yang tak fine.

back then, when I was in form five. my love life was spectacular. sangat best. at that time, I felt like fine, this is it. you will be the one. but something terrible happened. and this is all regarding my family. and that's it. life aku jadi miserable again. yes, I am telling the truth.

life never been easy obviously for me. sometimes, aku rasa macam, there is so much problems. and I am too tired to handle all those problems. * aku menaip ni pun rasa macam nak menangis *

tipu lah kalau aku cakap, aku tak jealous tengok orang lain selalu happy. macam jarang ada problems. sedangkan aku. selalu sangat ada problems. lepas satu, satu. tak cukup lagi dengan tu, diri aku lagi aku nak kena betul kan. aku penat. I am exhausted.

kalau bunuh diri, tak berdosa. mungkin -

I wrote this for you

2010-04-02T12:02:00.001+08:00

I have a new friend, Julia Adnan. haha. kelakar.

Ini bestfriend aku. Nurain Yahaya. lol.

Ini kegemaran aku. Netball.

Ini buah hati aku. atleast. for now.

Ini aku rindu. so much.

itu saja. end of story.

I’m fragile. SO?

2010-03-01T23:04:00.001+08:00

Peyton Sawyer, I miss you.

I dont hate you.

Quote : It was hard losing you.

Love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs-William Shakespeare

2010-02-10T16:00:00.001+08:00

countdown to Valentine’s Day everyone? yeah.

you come across the room. and always hit me with a smile. your love is a song. you know I will always come back for you. noted. these couple of days. i have been wondering around about something. but none of that matters. i’m pretty screwed sometimes.

above all else. i miss you.

p/s : baru lepas dapat one phone call. duit yang aku menang netball hari tu. one person hanya akan dapat rm10. i feel like, omg! main macam separuh mati. bermati-mati an la. tapi itu saja yang kitorang dapat. fair enough?

kahwin

2010-01-12T12:32:00.003+08:00

to all. aku dah nak berkahwin.

ecehh mek enon. bodohnya statement.

lol. terdorongnya aku untuk tulis entry ini bukan pasal apa pun. lately ni, selalu sangat aku dengar pasal kahwin ni. bukan rimas, bukan la allergic. tapi macam alahai. kenapa semua orang bercakap pasal kahwin? sedangkan aku, tak pikir langsung pasal kahwin. anak dara tua dah ke aku ni? kalau aku cakap pasal kahwin dengan family pun, nanti family aku akan cakap ' kejar kerjaya dulu, baru pikir pasal kahwin. jangan gatal sangat hidup tu' tapi tak apa la. pada aku kahwin ni. kalau ada jodoh, ada lah. tak ada pun tak apa. boleh jaga ibu di hari-hari dia tua.

bukan itu saja. 4 hari lepas. aku dapat berita. salah seorang kawan rapat aku di sekolah menengah. mahu berkahwin. hebat kan? dulu masa sekolah. aku ada 8 orang kawan rapat. so, sekarang ni tolak aku 1. tinggal 7. dah confirm-confirm lah bukan aku yang nak kahwin kan? jadi siapa ye? aku jadi bingung. orang yang bagitahu aku berita ni cakap ' alah ca. tak lama lagi kau tahu la' masalahnya sekarang ni, selalu sangat info sampai lambat. entah kenapa. tak penting kot aku ni. tapi apa pun, aku kena juga tahu. bukan kepoh, tapi kalau kawan aku kahwin. takkan aku taknak datang kot.

jadi ini gambar. nilai sendiri. *jangan tengok muka aku*

Jawab dalam hati saja

2010-01-04T10:58:00.001+08:00

trying so hard not to make my life even messed up dengan apa yang ada. but, i just cannot resist the temptation. desperate sangat ke aku ni?

fine,

if people tanya aku.

‘kau tak penat ke hidup macam ni?’

unfortunately. soalan tu tak akan di jawab sama sekali.

hati aku saja yang tahu. jawab dalam hati sudah memadai.

if people tanya aku.

‘kau taknak kahwin ke?’

fortunately, soalan tu akan aku jawab.

aku taknak kahwin. nak jaga ibu bila ibu dah tua.

if people tanya aku.

‘kau tak rindu ke?’

unfortunately, soalan itu hanya akan berbalas dengan ‘rindu siapa?’ ecehh mek enon. buat buat tak tahu kan. dan continue dengan senyuman.

hati aku bercakap, of course rindu. *menangis*

if people tanya aku.

‘bila kau nak berubah?’

soalan akan di jawab sekali saja. dan jawapan tersebut akan berbunyi macam ni. ‘biarlah aku nak jadi apa pun. susah kan korang ke?’

unfortunately, bila aku jawab macam tu. ramai yang kecik hati. mengada-ngada betul. jadi sekarang. bila orang tanya. aku akan hanya jawab ‘tengok lah’ cukup lah kan.

yang selebihnya. biar hati yang berbicara,

if people tanya aku.

‘kau tak pernah menyesal ke?’

selalu sangat la orang tanya soalan tu. rasa macam nak lempang je siapa-siapa yang tanya tu. macam, isy tolong lah. tapi biasanya, aku akan buat muka tenang. dan hanya jawab dengann menggelengkan kepala.

dan hati aku berkata : tak pernah menyesal pun.

enough.

sudah sudah la. persetankan saja semua soalan-soalan itu. tutup mata. tutup telinga. apa kah rationality behind semua soalan-soalan tu? biarlah aku hidup macam zombie sekali pun. this is what i chose to be. i wish i could do something to understand myself other than try to underestimate. perihal manusia. tak ada siapa yang mampu jadi perfect. i wonder, even if kau perasan kau ada halo atas kepala. tipu benar lah. oh my god. jangan pikir diri sendiri hebat. chop! chop!

500 hari panas

2009-10-12T19:52:00.002+08:00

nak kena state tajuk dulu ke? atau kita kena mengarang dulu? i guess. mengarang dulu. ngeh.

nak tengok 500 Days of Summer. boleh?

tengok trailer dia macam best. teringin nak tengok. tapi belum keluar pun dekat Malaysia. iklan cakap ' coming soon ' tapi bila?. entah apa kena dengan aku ni. kerja nak tengok cerita cinta saja. bukan angau tapi. nak angau dengan siapa lagipun. LOL. bodoh. baru tadi siang aku tengok cerita Forgetting Sarah Marshall. first time tu tengok. tapi macam best-nya. ngeh.